I'm breaking the mental chains
Cutting the psychic cords
Carefully stripping back
Playfully removing
Through trial and error
Investigation, introspection and interrogation
What contributes to the quality of my life
And what undermines my happiness and health
What can I cut down
How do I tear way the conditioning
Slice down conformity, cruelty and carelessness
Leave the bare bones of employability and the spectacle of sanity
Simply to survive this cruel and capitalist world
Abandon all hope of thriving in this world
Destroy my ambitions of success in this world
And save the finite time and energy I have towards community and care
Towards creativity and rest
At times slowness, at times sabotage
Soon escape, return to burn.
First published on ololufe-collective.art (shopify)
June 27, 2021
Why is my writing relatable but I'm not? This has brought me great distress my entire life. But the realisation has upset me lately.
Beyond Time and Space
Beyond Time and Space
Was Twe (That Which Experiences)
And nothing was Twe
Twe was curious
Twe wanted some new
Twe wanted something different
So they came into being
Xir started the big bang
And it felt
And fae hurled
And exploded.
And crashed
And banged
And kept expanding
Wider and wider
And all things came from her
All things came through it
Zey were everything
And the space between
She was space
And zie was nothing at all
From the tiniest particle
To the heaviest star
They did it all
And tey kept on
And he was planets
She was galaxies
Dey were solar systems
And the gravity that held them
She was universal
Trying new combinations
Developing
Creating
Evolving
Revolving
And he was information
Zey sent information
It was response
And the responder
Fey called
And he would answer
And zay had one desire
And that desire
Was to experience
To try every
All at once
In all the various ways
In everything
And keep going
Keep creating
Keep modifying
Keep surviving
Keep thriving
And experience
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I wrote this poem detailing my suspicions about existence. TWE is a term for "that which experiences" I wrote it when I was interested consciousness and why we experience and why we cant see or measure "consciousness". My suspicions are grounded in one unexplainable thing: our endless desire to adapt, survive essentially, the will to live, everything every living thing share the will to live. From bacteria to homo-sapians we all have 1 thing in common: to continue experiencing. It is highlighted by our will to live and for some the desire to reproduce, some to create legacy. I don't know. But the heights of creativity innate to all living creature to adapt, survive and continue the experience says so much to me.
[6/6, 14:07] Zeb: I had mango and Blue Runtz
[6/6, 14:07] Zeb: I'm happy
[6/6, 14:08] Zeb: I'm wearing a yellow hat and I'm planning my makeup
[6/6, 14:08] Zeb: I just had a very long shower and now I'm about the lotion my body
[6/6, 14:08] Zeb: Like I feel the fuck good
[6/6, 14:08] Zeb: And I've needed this soo bad
[6/6, 14:09] Zeb: I'm so excited to see everyone and show them what I've been doing.
[6/6, 14:09] Zeb: Share my thoughts and feelings in the open
[6/6, 14:10] Zeb: And infuse what I loved about Anti-Stan club here. Safely from my home.
[6/6, 14:11] Zeb: I can tidy up at the same time. I don't have to wear my mask, I can wear makeup and anything I want that's comfortable and cosy and have my house as warm as possible and do outfit changes if I want.
[6/6, 14:11] Zeb: Like my heart is full already
[6/6, 14:20] Zeb: Like it's such a chill space
[6/6, 14:21] Zeb: I'll be passively facilitating because I'll put on the music and the film and go back to body doubling.
[6/6, 14:22] Zeb: And I'm going to write about being super open to co creators of the space and co hosts and co facilitators
[6/6, 14:22] Zeb: Like if you want to rearrange things or make a change you are super welcome. I just want the space to be accessible and enjoyable.
[6/6, 14:23] Zeb: I'm going to add all this to my blog lol. Thank you so much P you really have such a wonderful friend.
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So the space is also a spiritual space as well as a space with recreational drug use. The song is dedicated to Osun and I'm utilising the coping mechanisms at my disposal.
If there's any accessibility needs required please message me on my phone.
Captions are available
Transcript will be available.
Recording hopefully will be available as well.
The song lyrics will be shown were available. A video description of the film will be said before the film and documented later.
The film has closed captions.
Attendees are not expected to turn on their mic or cam or utilise the chat if they don't wish to.
I'm really hoping for good ideas on making the virtual space more accessible. This blog post should be pinned in the chat so that attendees can refer to it.
I'd like to lock this blog behind the paywall but not everyone's in the blog 😭
Anyways finally I'll add the invitation and pray there ain't no trolls entering.
Actually I have to put the zoom link behind the paywall unfortunately.
